I’ve been feeling a lot lately like my best efforts are not good enough. That I’m not measuring up, not fulfilling my potential as a wife, mother or friend. As I was pondering this thought I realized that maybe my “best efforts” aren’t actually my “BEST efforts” at all. It’s kinda like (…prepare your hearts for a cheesy analogy…) the show the Biggest Loser…(did I lose you?! stick with me!) the contestants are working out and are constantly saying things like “I can’t” and telling their trainers that they have done as much as thy can do or they feel like they are dying. The trainers always continue to push them to do more or train harder and inevitably those that follow through always realize that they are capable of more than they ever imagined. The ones that stick it out time after time are usually the ones that win the prize.
So have I really been doing my best? Is this my BEST effort? Or do I have more deep down inside of me that I’m not tapping into. Is there more strength, will power and self-control inside of me that I don’t know is there simply because I haven’t pushed myself harder.
Recently when I’ve been ‘wasting time’ (usually social media is involved!) I’ve thought to myself “I don’t have time for this”…there are so many things that need to be done and there is time to do it all, I just haven’t tapped in to the well of time that I think (and hope) can be found. Maybe I’m just not looking hard enough? As with everything in life, there is a balance to be found. If I’m only ever “working” I won’t be happy and if I’m only ever “resting” I will be lazy and nothing will get done!